A new meaning for “Love is Blind”, My Wedding Day!

It’s Our Wedding Day!!!

I woke up to my alarm with a big smile on my face. Although I had just gone to sleep 4 hours prior, I was full of energy. I began to loudly hum the classic “Here comes the bride” song and hug my oldest daughter, who happened to sneak her butt in the bed with me sometime throughout the night. I was happy to see her face though! We jumped out of bed with a lot of excitement and did our normal routine. I made breakfast for everyone and then headed out the door for my bridal makeover appointment. My kiddos were left behind with my mom and best friend. My appointment was at
11 am and I was doing good on time.

I arrived at my appointment a few minutes early and immediately greeted with good vibes and a comfortable environment. There was music playing softly and it was very fitting. After a quick intro chat with Vicky, my makeup artist, we got started. Vicky communicated very well with me to be sure she understood the look I was going for. Now, I’ve never worn eyelashes before, but I decided to wear them this time since it would compliment my look. When she was done and I looked in the mirror, I was blown away. I immediately started feeling myself and batting my new eyelashes. It looked amazing! I got a little emotional, but I couldn’t cry this early. I had to get out of there.

It was now 3 hours away from me walking down the aisle. After a few car selfies and boomerangs, I was headed home to pack the car and head to the venue. Eeek! Oh so close!

On the ride home, I listened to all kinds of love songs and specifically the song I planned to walk down the aisle to. In that hour’s drive home, I had a lot of time on my hands and I randomly started making phone calls. First, I called our DJ and talked to her as if she was my homegirl I had known for years. I talked to her about my feelings, song choices and some wedding venue details. Thinking back to that call, she was the real MVP for listening and engaging with my shenanigans. lol. By the end of the call, I had changed the song I was walking down the aisle to. I was so happy with my choice. Next, I called my bestie for a mini praise break and to check in on how my little ones were doing. The kids had eaten, were dressed and Malia’s hair was done. I was ecstatic to hear that! Malia was taking her flower girl’s image seriously and Jocilyn made sure she was on point. I then called Sid, my fiancé at the time, and expressed how I couldn’t wait to see his face. We chatted a little bit until I got home. By the way, He was not there.

2 hour countdown

I opened the door to our house and Malia ran up to me, then hugged me so tightly. Mind you, I had barely been home due to hair & nail appointments and last-minute shopping. My babies missed me and I was feeling the withdrawals too. I was surprised, but Naomi was sleeping. So, I kissed and hugged on Malia for a few minutes and let her help me with some small things so she felt included. My mom and I started packing the car with my dress, kids stuff and other necessities for the wedding. Just as we were almost done packing the car, my vision began to get a little blurry. I went to the bathroom quickly to figure it out. After about 10 minutes of problem-solving & cleaning my contacts over and over again, they were finally clear and I could see again. Whew. Now that everything was in the car, I had to get my sleeping 8 month old in the car seat and the car without a fight.

Well, that didn’t happen. She just wanted me to hold her and THIS was definitely not the time. It took about 10 minutes to get her calm and in the car. 

Now 30 minutes behind, we headed to the venue and my eyes became blurry AGAIN! I pulled the car over, put my contacts in its case and opted to wear my glasses. We arrived safely at the venue and a rush of panic filled my body as I rushed inside. I started getting dressed and with the help of my loved ones, the kids were getting dressed also. Here is where you need a good tribe. 

I’m finally dressed. My sister, Jakia, did the final touches with my hair. My sister, Jalyssia, helped keep me calm because we were now 30 minutes behind schedule and I was freaking out. I turned around and realized I still had my glasses on. I took a deep breath and put my contacts in. They were clear for ALL of 2 minutes and then they became blurry again. We attempted so many times to adjust my lashes, clean my contacts and nothing was working. I had no idea what was causing it. I cried. There weren’t enough tears to FULLY destroy my makeup. But, I was distraught. My tribe grabbed my hand and prayed with me. It was time to go walk down the aisle to meet my husband to be.

I was so grateful my friend Kim is a seasoned makeup artist. She did a quick touch up to my face and I walked to my place. I was not happy because I literally could not see. At that moment I had a decision to make, be mad at what is or be grateful for all the things that were going right. A few moments later, Malia’s song started and she walked out so gracefully and then she was out of my sight.

I then spotted a blurry image of my photographer waving at me. I started to freak out again not knowing what she was saying or why she was waving. I closed my eyes, took a deep breath, prayed and accepted that I would not be able to see. I thought of the many reasons I was even standing there in the first place. Sid and I had worked so hard to get to this moment. We had grown so much individually and understood what this moment was for us. Our kids get to witness a moment that their parents became husband and wife because they without a doubt loved each other. I needed to be brave. I needed to be present. I needed to “see” internally what this ceremony symbolized for us.

Then my song began for me to walk.

“I get to love you by: Ruelle”

I straightened up my back, held my head high, looked forward and began to walk with confidence. Everything looked like I was viewing it through a water bubble. I could see blurry outlines of people, objects, and color but that was it. As soon as I was in clear view of everyone, the most amazing thing happened; I could feel their energy. All 8 of our guests stood up, fed me love and light; it made me smile hard.

We are all made of energy. Our emotions, moods and physical movement release our genuine energy out into common space where others can easily pick up on it. It is a beautiful thing. 

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I approached Sid and my cup runneth over from the positive vibes observed from his body language. 
I guess I looked alright. lol 

Pastor Andrew asks us to hold hands.

It was time for our vows. Sid was up first. He had memorized his vows and it was beautiful. As my eyes filled with tears as he spoke, I saw his face for the first time! His smile made me smile. I prayed to see his face and I’m so glad it happened.
It quickly faded away and it was my turn to say my vows. My sister handed me my vows. Opening them and realizing I couldn’t read it was devastating. To soften the moment, I said a little joke about my vision impairment. Everyone laughed, then I began my vows. With my vows very close to my face, I managed to see keywords that triggered my memory on what I wanted to say. I spoke from my heart and stated my promises confidently which I intend to uphold for the rest of our lives.

After our vows, we proceeded to our sand ceremony. We each poured a different color of sand into a heart-shaped vase as Pastor read what it symbolized. Our sand ceremony symbolized Sid and I becoming one; just as you cannot separate the sand once mixed, neither can our union.

I tried my very best to pour the sand in the vase but by the body language of my husband, I wasn’t doing that well. Most of what I had poured ended up on the table. It was quite embarrassing. With just half of the vase to go before it was full, I whispered to him that I couldn’t see. Sid takes my sand and so graciously pours it for me. I’m blessed to have him.

After our sand ceremony, Pastor Andrew pronounces us
Husband and Wife and we kisssssss! (a couple of times)

We make our exit to the instrumental of Marry you by Bruno Mars. We briefly gather with our tiny tribe, taking pictures and chatting. Then the DJ started our “first dance” song and our family grabbed the kiddos for us. It was beautiful dancing with my husband for the first time. I could see his face since it was pretty close. I couldn’t stop smiling. I was just happy and amazed by all that transpired and still, there was nothing that could take my smile away.

Our song ended and we went off for pictures. I ended up taking my contacts out completely and going with my natural blindness. Things did not appear as blurry anymore, but I still couldn’t see anything far away. I was content. Our photographer was great, the photo shoot was fun and it didn’t take forever. Although we had some hiccups in our day, it was filled with love.

Sometimes we get so caught up on what’s going wrong, that we don’t acknowledge what is going right. As for me, I may have not seen the wedding first hand. But, I could feel the positive energy, hear our wedding songs, touch my husband hands and taste his lips.
That was that I couldn’t see at my wedding. But, ya know what, it happened and we will forever have a funny but beautiful wedding story to tell.

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LOVE 2/25/2020

– The Johnson Family–

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